miya osaki just made a comment about "horvitz" then i remembered that i learned the meaning of my name. i can't remember anymore. biblical? bilboa? i think i remember bilboa, but that was like the bible or something. i don't know. don't remember what it meant.

also from last night. i had a dream i found a random movie or video on youtube. in it were all my picture discs. the first thing i remember is this guy in the video holding up the high places picture disc over his face. then the rest were there. i think it was in black in white.

lisa rave didn't come back to Bard, however, she came to what i think i remember as Otis. Paul Branca was there. He made a smirky comment, a smart comment, not that otis was necessarily better or worse than bard, but just something informative. he also said amy sillman was at otis, but i can't remember is this was a joke or serious. and i remember this still being in what i think is New York, so Otis was in NY not LA. people started coming into where we were, so i suggested that i give everyone the news that lisa was not coming back. i think she did get the german funding, she just decided to use it elsewhere. Jeremy Owen Leclair was there, and i was going to tell him the news, but then i think i felt weird that i was the one saying it. i think i jokingly told everyone, i should inform everyone, and thought they would speak out against that idea, but no one did, so then i felt weird, and felt i had to tell jeremy, but then i didnt.

it is mid day, i woke up early and went to dim sum, i will see what i can remember.

i think i was with mylinh nguyen. she slept in my bed, maybe that is why she was in the dream. we were escaping some kind of evil or something. i remember something that reminds me of guitar center. i think we had escaped and we were outside and i was throwing rocks at a computer to smash it. i kept missing it. guthrie lonergan was there too i think. he came later, he must have escaped later, maybe we thought he was dead, i don't remember.

lots of strange stuff. I think I was with Karen O of the yeah yeah yeahs. but this is the second half of the dream, i don't remember the first. but she looked like an old picture of miranda july. but not really. i made the comparison. she took me to their concert. we hung out backstage. walter chiu met me there, or came along or something, i don't know. when the concert was about to start we walked out there, she told me to stand near the front of the stage. maybe this is where i ran into walter. there were people in army uniforms. then later there were other uniforms. i thought maybe a bunch of people from the army came to the show, or maybe it was part of a dance performance. i think i walked near them and got in their way. then i went back to where karen told me to stand. i remember wondering if jenn wong was there, she likes the yeah yeah yeahs a lot, and i was wondering if she could see me b/c i was in the front. i didn't want to stay where i was, so i walked up into the side area near the stage. there were a few bathrooms there. i think it was private access, but i got over there. later i came back and people were having sex in the bathroom. and i think someone was having sex in the other bathroom as well. i left, and then they came out and i thought the guy was going to beat me up for interrupting him, but i played it cool,and he tried to look tough and walk around me, but nothing happened. i am getting vague memories of the earlier part of the dream that lead into this, but i can't grasp anything. some waiting maybe. i don't know. i think iggy pop was at the concert.

I think I was in Berlin.

i barely remember anything. I think Brendan Fowler, Aaron Rose, and Harell Fletcher.

I remember Harell was sitting across from a table. Maybe there was food. He gave me the envelope I mailed him to get his contribution to the PO box show.

I remember nothing else.

I may remember william basinski saying the xiu xiu show in la was too small for him to play because he had too much equipment, but maybe i didn't dream this.

i don't know.

my sister was there. i don't remember what or why.

i think i remember el segundo. maybe there was an ice cream place at the end of one road. i am thinking this ice cream place is a recurring location.

there was a police officer that i flagged down for my mom.

there was a body in the street when i went outside and looked (not related to the officer).

there may have been family things.

more from last night

mary pearson was there
lucky dragons was there

i can't remember the context

something about lucky dragons

luke fischbeck was sleeping on the ground, maybe outside, he was sleeping with centerfold on his chest, but he was holding centerfold down so she didn't try to walk away when he was asleep. centerfold was asleep too.

i must have been at bard. it must have been the first or second day or something. cory arcangel was running. i saw him through the window, he was across the street. i think he was late. for some reason i think this was the second day because i remembered him running the day before. i was in a cafeteria type place. cory came in and wasn't late and relieved i think. he sat with the yellow swans. but it was only one of them - either pete or gabe. i think it was pete. i remember thinking, it's interesting that my friends are my faculty here. the yellow swans must have been on the music faculty that summer. i was sitting at one table. there was another table. i can't remember who was where. i remember getting up to get food. i wanted the peppers stuffed with white cheese, and they wouldn't give it to me b/c of something (similar to what happened that day at claude's on miya's birthday, i got free cookies b/c they had no way of weighing one small cookie). but then they gave it to me. i had to run and get my plate.

somewhere in the dream i had a flash i was back in berlin, but then i was concerned how long i was in berlin. maybe it was at the food that i thought this b/c in berlin i would always go to the Turkish market, and they had peppers stuffed with white cheese.

maybe arthur gibbons told me something about a former japanese student who did crazy things, and then he had to have his performance or graduation or whatever in some large stadium that fit 10,000 people, and they had to try to sell all the tickets or something.

i snuck into an abandoned building. i got caught when i came out. because there was a security outside it going through the locked fence. instead of jumping over the fence i went with the security, who was in a little car, through the fence. i played it cool. he was wondering why i was there. i think he mentioned bombing the building. i thought it would look like berlin after the war if he did.

there was a house i was living in. crazy stairs. can't remember much about the house. vague memory of a hotel or something.

i think the mexican restaurant was back.

i think greg sidman was walking in el segundo wearing really short shorts. i drove by him and yelled at him, i don't think he heard me, so i sent him a text later.

mary halvorsen showed me a website of a dream dictionary. i forgot what the link is.

i think mylinh nguyen was there. there was a restaurant. maybe there was two. i wanted to go to another, but we were going to one. or maybe it is more vague than this. i think these "two" restaurants appeared in a different dream as well. I think they go together. I can't remember anything. Something about staying up all night. A girl with her boyfriend watching pornography upstairs, while I was in a different room. I wondered if it was OK to have these random people upstairs in my house. I was a little concerned. Was I staying up all night? was I going anywhere in the morning? Maybe. I can't remember. There was another room, I think Penelope Umbrico was represented by a black widow spider hanging from the ceiling in the middle of a room. I was with someone else on the corners of the room. I don't know how I knew it was her. I think she was testing how it was to be a spider. I don't know if it was a game or a new thing or what. She was eating something bright red,like a cherry tomato, but i assume it was a bug or something. maybe she talked to me and thats how i knew it was her. the person i was with, we were still frightened a little b/c she was a spider, even though i think i rememer haing conflict - one i knew her and it was fine, but two it was a spider. i remember the spider spinning around. i remember looking away and then looking back and the spider was gone. there is lots of vague stuff regarding other people and the restaurant and maybe driving and maybe a country type location. I can't remember.

had a dream that mark batty printed a new polaroid book with instructional artwork texts in it. it was an interesting object, holes in the book, maybe plastic. i got upset b/c they printed text that wasn't supposed to be there. like the extra characters in an email that is just ramblings, but not part of the content. but then i realized it was just a test print. the test print was done so well that i thought it was real. i remember something else but i can't remember. maybe a girl/women. a hallway.

it's been cold and i've been leaving my computer upstairs. so i haven't been waking up right away and writing these.

i remember there was a hotel room. i think lukas geronimus came in and wanted to smoke a joint. actually it was a bathroom. maybe a bathroom in a hotel, but the room was the room. it wasn't a bathroom in a room. i didn't want him to smoke a joint b/c it was my mom's room. i was taking a bath, and i didn't want her to think it was me smoking a joint. somewhere two girls and maybe a guy invited me into the bathroom. i think maybe i thought it was just one girl who invited, but then two of her friends came. we got in the shower or bathtub, i was naked, and i think they were fully clothed. i think i kept swiching interests in girls. then they had to leave. i want to go with them maybe. but then there was a girl who came in. i think the bathtub must have become a bed now. she was on the bed. she might have been homeless/crazy/a prostitute/ crack head. i think she was all fucked up. i couldn't leave her in my mom's room. i had to get her out. i don't remember what i did. i think her hair was short and bright.

back in NY, skipped the last dreams while things were hectic

brendan fowler was in the dream. and chris johanson. i was going to show chris the postcard that was made for the po box show. i remember looking at the postcard on the ground in the dirt. i wanted to meet with him, but he was about to fly away somewhere. i can't remember. (tauba is flying to SF, maybe this is related). brendan mentioned the he mentioned me in a barr song about xiu xiu - he apologized. i didn't know what it was about - i tried to guess. there were two thoughts - one was about a girl, and the other i can't remember, maybe about me being hyper active, but portrayed negatively but honestly. i am getting little visions of the rest of the dream, but nothing i can articulate in words. a concert? i snuck into a concert? abe vigoda was playing maybe? jennifer from mika miko was there. i just saw the back of her head however, her hair was orange. there was a club setting. someone DJing. there was a bomb! but the bomb didn't go off. it was thrown into a doorway. we all ran away. it went of like an hour later. it blew off someone's legs. some child saw this happen i think. i can't remember the details. back in the concern i snuck into, all the security guards ran after all the people who had snuck in at one point, but i was smart and hid somehow. i can't remember how, either in a small room, or i was sneaky. there was a girl watching the room that the bomb was in... something about a restaurant in LA. now i think dreams are merging, but I don't know. now i think i have just merged three dreams, or maybe three dreams from last night. jim smith might have been there, but i can't remember. it was not the smell, and it wasn't a representation of the smell either. was i running?