Dean Spunt was across the train platform. I yelled to him.

It was an animal collective concert, but it wasn't. I think they were singing in Japanese. But it was understood as an AC show. Amir Shoucri was there. Freddy Ruppert was there. I think Amir drove. As they went in, I went around to the back to try and sneak in. I said I was on the list, so they let me inside where the box office was, then I said I needed to use the bathroom, so she took me to the bathroom. As I did all this I scoped the scene, looking for a way to get in. She took me really far into the venue, way in the back and down hallways. At one point I think I accidentally snuck out of the back area, so I had to try and sneak back into it, to try to sneak into the show. At one point I was talking to someone and I said I am supposed to shoot photos - I had a faked letter saying I would. She accepted it, and signed one of my walking partner cards and said to show this to the guards and they'd let me in. The letter was either from vivian host from xlr8r or from from light and wire gallery. i can't remember. i don't know why both of those are coming up. i was a little worried it'd get back to me that i forged the letter. then i had to go find amir's car to get my camera. i couldn't find his car. i had his keys, don't remember how i got them. looked in one parking lot, then looked in another, but couldn't find his car. then freddy ruppert came out. the band was singing in japanese, and i was trying to figure out who it was i was seeing, i couldn't remember, it was weird. freddy was waiting for some people, maybe some noise people from LA. I think there was a diner earlier. i think somewhere else i farted really loud and people looked at me.

the low e string of my acoustic guitar broke. when it happened this guy looked and me and told me shhhhh. it was in some strange gambling situation. he was concerned, at a different time, that i wasn't winning. he wanted me to win. or atleast feel more enthusiastic about the game. he didn't realize that it didn't matter because i didn't care. i wasn't into it, so i wasn't getting let down when i would lose. on the back of the anp quarterly magazine it said that lucy raven was doing the next one back cover, but i couldn't figure out if she also did the current back cover. it was a photograph i think of two sailboats and a smaller boat. or maybe the smaller boat was the boat where the photograph was taken, so it was just two small sail boats. i think it was in asia, maybe the middle east. all of a sudden we were on the small boat, and shot a photograph from behind, then we sped a head, and had a view from infront of the two boats.

and i think i was in xiu xiu. i was playing on stage, and kept going behind a curtain. i can't remember if this was in the video juan was watching. maybe the photographs in his interviewers bag turned to video. i don't know.

barbara ess was retiring. there was some kind of party. in a big field. a small kitty, the size of a finger, was walking through the field. behind her house was the field, then there was a huge building, then i went in. looked like a mansion. figured someone lived there, but then i was in it, and there was a bar. so it was ok i was there. a guy lived there, his girlfriend or someone talked to me. then everyone came in. there was food. walter chiu was there, because i had to call him to compare something. i think i left barbara's and then came back, it was in the middle of nowhere, very hard to find. as i was driving, paul, my mom's boyfriend, called me to figure out how to get there, but i wasn't sure. some weird testing. jenn wong worked for a place. she was building some kind of bomb. i don't know. before barbara's there was a show/restaurant/ store space. I think it was called Snacks. I don't remember who was there, but it was very LA. Maybe Mika Miko, but I don't know. Abe Vigoda maybe. Oh, I was watching an Abe Vigoda video of some sort, and they were being interviewed, and Juan looks in the interviewers bag and finds photogorgraphs that I had taken. Skies and some polaroids of other things, and then some crazy shots, me under water or in a bathroom, maybe naked. The store was somewhere. I think they said Long Beach, but that didn't make sense. I thought maybe San Pedro. But I felt it was very LA, so it had to be somewhere else. They were watching a video. I kept leaving. A movie. I don't remember what the movie/video was. Then Barbara's thing happened after.

Yoni Zonszein. that's all i remember.

and also: the ocean view from cornwall that is to be printed on newsprint, it was cropped incorrectly. but it was fixable, not permanent.

riding ken marriner's white bike. the back tire goes. flat. looking for a tire place. i am going through different campuses. i maybe talking or something. people approach me with envelopes. lily nakano is tehre and gives me something. i think marley freeman tells me about a bike place. i feel i end up in el segundo looking for a tire place. one is closed, but looking through the glass door it looks more like a restaurant. i see a vagabond type figure going into a small apartment, on maybe richmond or viriginia street in el segundo. from behind i think it is my father, but i don't say anything. later my mother says my father is in the emergency room. i think that maybe he got out, and that's when i saw him. there is some kind of tire place named Sartre or something. There are these video photo adds for this Mkenzie guy, some artist who uses balloons. We have to help free him. was i giving a talk, or had a show? someone that reminds me of michelle blade was the person who set it up, or the curator. i don't know.

also: Rhizome messed up the pixels I bought for Mylinh Nguyen. They put the wrong dead link.

went to meet ches smith and miya osaki at a pizza place for dinner. fancy place. potato pizza. this was after an ordeal, but can't remember it all. we were on a boat. maybe a ferry or something. or a ferry taxi. or a taxi as boat. when we got off someone stole a bike. we chased her and she crashed. it was a little girl. she was angry and upset. i yelled her, i told her she shouldn't steal only take - take food when she's hungry, but not steal peoples things. i went back, got my stuff, there was something about my stuff. maybe my laptop. i don't know. then i went to get the pizza with the other person, i think a female, waiting. trying to remember what about my stuff.

earlier: there was a masquerade part. little black masks, you need the black masks to get in. paul branca was there. we were waiting outside. didn't have the masks. but we were going to get in somehow. lisa williams was there. free stuff. little plastic things of cakes, or of steaks. one had shoes with a watch in it. free gifts from sponsors of party.

Cory Arcangel. Daniel Chew. Maybe Joseph Valle. Jeremy Leclair. Talking to Jeremy on a cellphone, planning on going somewhere, to the beach or the mountains, walking through a crowd of people on the street. Cory had a show, I think. Something happened later. Maybe that is where Daniel was. I had a photograph of Cory. My laptop.

Yesterday I didn't write anything because I was too disgusted, but I don't think likes or dislikes has a place here. All that should be here is recollection. Miya Osaki. Ches Smith. In a public bathroom with a pair of paints, feces got all over the pants. I don't remember how. I was not wearing the pants, I was holding them, but someone they got on them, and I was grossed out.

paul branca was there. i think he was with david rothenburg, but i am not sure. they were coming to meet me. i was painting. i had to paint a pathway b/c i got some money for bard. part of the deal was i had to paint a pathway. josh kit clayton was there. my mom was coming to pick me up, i called her and told her i'd start walking and meet her. when i called her later, realizing she was coming - i had forgot - and paul wanted to hang out - she said she was on center st. things were confusing b/c i didn't need to get picked up anymore. the path i had to paint was dirt, so it was confusing. jutta koether was there, and we talked, and she told me that i am a "freak" artist - but meant not really weird, just kind of akward. lukas geronimus went to sweden and asked me about sweden, he went there with someone. i told him to go to malmo, but he didn't go.

julianne lee smoked and i got upset. she also wet the bed.

stolen money. ches smith getting arrested for sneaking into a movie theater. miya osaki is there. i go out to try and stop the arrest. i have to run from the law. i take trains, hide in bush, other things. they can't catch me. i am in shadows. stolen money. i keep escaping. cars. earlier, going into train station, not related to the running from law, as i go in to station jess wilcox goes out of station. maybe devin hoff is there, but i can't remember.

had to go see kyle parker/ infinite body at a place. i think it was iowa. didn't want to miss him. lucky dragons played too. someone else was headlining. was at some place, and was waiting for a friend to get ready to go. was trying to use my cell phone to call kyle to see when he played, but for some reason i couldn't use my cell phone. i think mike sliff was there, maybe, to tell me kyle's number. i saw luke, he said kyle played, but then he wasn't sure. he miked bread and was playing that in a room where jamie chan was. i think i was watching the news, and youtube videos i made of exhibitions i was in were playing, and then i got excited. the news didn't play them b/c of me, but b/c of other things in the video, but it just so happened that it took place at my exhibition. i think caleb engstrom was there. maybe a different show, i don't know, scarnella was playing, but i opened the set playing on some little xylophone, then carla bozulich came out, then i left and nels cline came out. i think before that anp people were there: brendan folwer, aaron rose, ed tempelton. but i don't know. people were getting pushed around maybe. i don't know. jeff from rainbow blanket was walking, bob bruno was there.

kris latocha was there. and someone else. i think another european. they left, or were leaving, flying back to somewhere, probably europe. we did the european kiss on the cheek thing, but it seemed to be a little slower.

i remember a tree.

i remember andrea longacre white. i think she grabbed brendan fowler from behind. he was performing maybe. she tried to pull him back. maybe he wasn't performing. i think he got upset when she grabbed him, but she was trying to do something. i can't remember. like, maybe he was - oh - i think the microphone was off, and she was grabbing him say it was off, and to get off the stage and fix it, or something. then i think it was dave portner the animal collective singer. maybe brendan turned into dave, or something. doug harvey was there. did he go to el segundo? or did this name represent someone who went to el segundo? someone said he failed his mba test or something. i had a microphone and i was making weird sounds during the performance, playing along, but i don't know if people were into it. i was getting crazy. there was a girl next to me who kept lighting the oven on fire. the oven was in the back. the space was strange.

brian kennon was there too, can't remember what he was doing.

going to get tacos. or something. ceci moss was there i think. not sure what else. with a few people. maybe jamie stewart was there. maybe it was on a xiu xiu tour. i don't know.

at one point PJ was driving, doing crazy things in the car. we could have died, but we didn't. i don't remember who else was there. there was a point where dana hoey was there. she made me sign a contract for a new work to make. she asked me about a show i was in, and i guess she wanted to see my piece, but she must have not known which one was mine. i think my piece was small. i think we met in this weird marsh like place, similar to the structure of the holocaust memorial in berlin, where you slowly get deeper into it, like you were going into the sea. but this was like low grass to tall grass, so you slowly go inside of grass until it covers your body and no one can see you from the outside. there were two restaurants - maybe one was breakfast - and one was mexican - i feel these two restaurants have appeared in other dreams. i think we tried to walk to one - it was a nice walk - going through a field, abandoned stuff, urban alleyways/ fields, etc... oh, i think i was look at jim morrison's wiki page or something - it talked about him being rob fisks' father. it described the scenario of how it happened.

sarah ra ra/ sarah anderson was the first lady. i was thinking about how strange it was to have a friend who was the first lady, and how much responsibility and pressure she must have now.

mother. father. hotel. julianne lee. different hotel. people from norway, from island. people talk about la times saying it's like iraq or vietnam, i say, norway b/c of the other people i met from norway. something about a war in norway. driving somewhere. trying to make it to bennington maybe. maybe indianapolis. maybe splitting up on xiu xiu tour. i don't know. money lost. something about a dog. dog ate money. dog disappeared. money in back of speaker stolen, but returned after paying $450. different hotel rooms.

we were in a banh mi shop. his specialty was gumbo, and a cold soba noodle - but the cold noodle was big and white and clear, not like normal soba. i think i saw him put a piece of fried chicken, bone and all, on the bread. we talked about banh mi.

we must have been at the first day of bard. julianne lee was there. i don't know why. the faculty must have wondered why i brought her. but i think there was reason why she was there, so it was OK. Miranda Lichenstein had a short haircut, and I couldn't figure out if it was her, but i guessed it must have been. Penelope Umbrico was there, she was wearing black and had silver ear rings. We were looking at readings. Or, we were given readings.

for some reason i think I was in Mira O'brien's apartment, but she wasn't there. I spilled tea there, an dropped eggs on a staircase. I was with some girl, someone who i was staying with at another apartment, we were there to check in on it, or something? There was a presence there, like a ghost or something. i can't remember how i knew, but i knew. the tea was in this weird device that had two cups at once, and the spout was o different sides so they didn't both pour out at the same time.

at another point, i drove in a car w/ this ghost back to where i was staying. but then, where the ghost was supposed to turn (the ghost was driving, i was in the passenger seat), there were people either doing construction or playing on the sidewalk, and maybe the ghost freaked out and kept driving. and then i freaked b/c we were going into a big intersection. maybe i let the ghost drive b/c it was such a short drive, and now it was getting into a dangerous part of the street. we were going straight at police cars that were either parked or coming towards us, and the ghost wasn't moving out of the way, so i pulled the emergency break, and with my hands, slammed on the break. i can't remember if i stopped or not or what, but i didn't die. i ended up near a chinese restaurant that resembled szechewan, that was in manhattan beach where i grew up - but it was named something else. near the restaurant i was with the girl i was staying with and some guy, and i said the ghost was still around and i'd prove it, i said outloud for the ghost to assert its presence by making windchimes move, and it did, and the guy freaked a little. we got scratch lotto tickets, and i think i won something, but then the numbers kept changing like a slot machine moving, so i thought you had to cash it at a winning point. we were at the place i was staying, i was too scared to go back to mira's b/c of the ghost, but i wanted to clean u the eggs and spilled tea.


a few days ago:

on a billboard type thing, rage against the machine was doing a tribute to brian eno.